Who are you

 I am actually finding it hard to connect with people like on relationship level, its like i dont want to be intimate with anyone. Its like I feel like I might hurt people and they might hurt me. its also like I have all this pain stored up in me and like I dont even want to be it to be luggage or burden to anyone. its like my life is a constant journey of rediscovery and trying to figure out who I really am and who i want to become. I am learning how to deal with pain and some of my traumas. sometimes its not easy, sometimes it gets lonely at night and sometimes i cant sleep,. its like i am desparate to be loved and anxouise to open up to anyone. Sometimes I feel like I am not good enough, or I am not doing enough. but sometimes I am proud of myself. sometimes i feel alone in this life. sometimes i feel like nobody really got my back. sometimes i am afraid to overshare, that i will be judge or misunderstood. nobody really gets me,

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